Here’s to the “Dumb” Kids

Here’s to the “dumb” kids who could never get above a C. They are the children society has tossed to the side as it embraces strait A’s. With each passing report card, parents yell, and the kids yell back. Here’s to the kids who try every time, but the same red ink beams into their eyeballs. Here’s to the kids who realized that trying yields the same result as procrastination, and so stopped the process early on.

Here’s to the “dumb” kids who throw pencils into ceilings instead of planting them in paper. Here’s to the kids who show up late to class with coffee in one hand and phone in the other. Here’s to the kids who giggle in the back chairs, stuffing laughter down their throats when teachers call their names. Here’s to the kids who spend weekends at each other’s houses instead of buried in books. Here’s to the kids who make plans instead of planners, and scheduale time around friends instead of quizzes. Here’s to the kids who climb out of their bedroom windows, feet dangling in the chill of the night, gazing at the moonlit yard beneath them. Here’s to the kids who stay up way too late and sleep in class. Here’s to the kids who speed down highways, with fear and adrenaline and pure joy in their veins. Here’s to the kids who date and break up and date and break up again, regretting it every time. Here’s to the kids who get in trouble and grin with memory in detentions. Here’s to the kids who have sleepovers and eat too much candy and share too much gossip. Here’s to the kids who go to parties and dance at them, too. Here’s to the kids in their cliques, who know themselves but not the outside world. Here’s to the kids who avoid working but find their passions in the process, who dream, who break their own hearts, who rebuild, who neglect the future but experience the present. Here’s to the kids who were never taught that they had more to offer than letter grades and high GPAs. Here’s to the kids who wish they were “smart.”

Here’s to the “dumb” kids whos’ eyes will soften and crack with wisdom. Here’s to the kids who will someday have little eyes gaze up at them as they rest their weary backs on weathered couches. Here’s to the kids whose shoulders will shake with each chuckle as they remember that time when good ol’ Paul or Joe or Sam got themselves in real big trouble with the principle. Here’s to the kids who will tell stories. Here’s to the kids who will wonder how each other are doing. Here’s to the kids who still call sometimes.

Here’s to the dumb kids. May you never forget what we have failed to learn.

Mrs. Daffodil

The irony behind the innocence of a daffodil and how it is linked to my larger than life uncle is remarkable. When analyzing a daffodil, you instantly notice the vibrancy of the petals and the bell shaped center standing out prominently like a happy melody begging to be heard by all. Its stem is strong and its petals are delicate: two complete opposites, yet they create a beautiful whole.

My uncle isn’t necessarily the delicate type. He’s a hard working man who works 15+ hour days at Reilly’s Bakery in Biddeford making hundreds of pastries and loaves of bread for the local community. He is constantly working hard to make others happy and satisfy customer’s needs one doughnut at a time. Working that hard for that long is a true resemblance of resiliency and determination.

At the young age of five, I was over at my uncle’s house for a family dinner. While he was busy in the kitchen cooking, I entertained myself by running laps with his dog around the dining room table. The casual running turned into full on sprints as I tried running ahead of the dog to win this never ending race. A race that I thought would never end abruptly came to a halt when I ran straight into a wall and ricocheted backwards falling on top of the dog.

My uncle walks in with his arms full of food and almost drops everything when he loses his marbles laughing at the chaotic scene in the dining room. He advised me to stop running around before I got a concussion. I snapped back with a sarcastic “Yeah okay Mrs. Daffodil!”

That night is when the nickname got started. It all goes back to the year 2006 when I was being silly running around with his dog. To this day, I still call him Mrs. Daffodil. The name seems fitting. He’s strong and persistent, yet also delicate when it comes to caring for me. Not only is he my uncle; he is also my godfather. He’s been there for me through it all and he still is here for me today. That in itself is beautiful and happy just like the physical characteristics of a daffodil.

Offbeat (Circadian) Rhythm

I’m so tired.

My stare is as blank as the page I’m looking at. No profound thoughts are running through my head.  Instead it’s as though my train of thought has skated off the rails and come to a complete stop.  I lack the strength of will to right it’s course, though I know I must.  It’s terrifying.

My feeble grip on reality is slipping, and I float, untethered, from my body. Escaping into the air is almost relieving, as the physical exhaustion weighing in my bones senses the proximity to sweet oblivion.  I crave it.  And for a moment, I give in. Eyes close and the steady burning behind my lids finally fades to a dull throb.  Sentient thought returns long enough to rationalize the many benefits of unconsciousness.  It’s a compelling argument, and I’m in no shape to disagree.

So, I don’t.

The moment I let myself fade into sleep is pure bliss.  Time is irrelevant when you’re dead to the world, but it can’t be more than five minutes before I hear a door slam downstairs.  It rattles the house and shakes me out of my reverie long enough to gaze at the empty screen in front of me.

And while the burning behind my lids fails to subside, it is subverted by the fist clenching my chest.  A rush of adrenaline, and my heart pounds against its prison.  In the haziness of half-consciousness I’m too afraid to look at my hands, scared that the skin will be distorted, anxiety crawling underneath like arachnids.

The paranoia quickly morphs into a more familiar fear.  In front of me, the page is still blank.  Panic at the thought of in-completion evaporates the fog clouding my thoughts, and an idea begins to form.  Amusement tugs at my lips, and the first sentence flows from my fingers, “I’m so tired.”

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grades

I’ve come to realize that grades are a dangerous thing. That is, if like me, you use grades to scale your overall self worth. Very bad, yes, I realize this. However, it’s very hard to put a clear distinction between the two at times when grades are the only thing that matter when you set expectations for yourself as high as mine.

Slowly, over the years, I’ve accepted that perfection—regarding grades for myself—is impossible, and that grades are a simple method used to put a letter or number on the work given, disregarding the personal struggles—or any emotion at all really— put into it. But there’s always a lurking feeling of anger, or maybe hopelessness, when an assignment is given a grade that is just unfair when real life factors are considered. I can almost hear grades mocking me sometimes, “I know you tried and struggled and wasted four hours of your ever fleeting precious time on me—but this is all ya get.” Cool.

Grades essentially label people’s level of intelligence and understanding right? So when I get a bad grade, does that mean I’m stupid, or don’t understand? And if I don’t understand something, does that mean I’m a failure? Must I understand everything to receive a perfect grade? If school is for learning, why is our understanding of something labeled so intensely and without remorse? What if I do understand something and I was just unable to put in my best effort? The school system isn’t going to work for everyone, so why do I take the fall for it when I could possibly compete on the same level as the “smart kids”. Are the people compatible with the school system the only ones allowed to succeed to their fullest potential?

The Lack of College Preparation in High School

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Teenagers are often asked the dreaded question, especially when they are juniors or seniors in high school. “What do you want to do?” For some teens who have already found their passion, this question is easy to answer. However, it is harder for others because of the lack of help they receive in the American school system.

This decision and the college process in general can be very stressful, and can come on too fast for some people. The decision of what a person wants to spend their life doing is such an important one, yet the college process can rush teens into making a decision that they are not completely set on. A lot of teens change majors once reaching college, simply because they did not know what the college experience would be like. This could be blamed on the constantly changing mind of a teenager, but blame could also be placed on the American school system leading up to the college level.

The main purpose of the American school system prior to college is to prepare students for college by giving them the tools and abilities to succeed. Although the school system is not bad, there is definitely room for improvement. Students go from everyday classes such as math and english before suddenly being told “hey, you need to decide what you want to do with your life.” Although the classes are helpful, they do not provide teaching on how to be an adult and how to find your passion. Sorry, but having worksheets and textbooks shoved into a students arms does not help a student find its passion. In order to do that, an educator must touch a students heart, not blindly go over the same curriculum with the same students.

Teachers need to be allowed to teach outside the box to help every student find their passion. This way, students will be more prepared for the magnitude of the college decision.

Just Mercy

To many of its readers, Just Mercy could be considered one of the most revealing books on the truth behind the curtain that is called the justice system. It is the story of a honest, hard working man and the lives that he touches through his many years of dedicated work. The book in my mind is a masterpiece, which innocently exposes the scandals of those who control the much of the nation. However, with this being said the ending of such a work should have left the reader feeling inspired.

Instead of concluding the book with the some of the highest victories or the continuing of their mission to fight for justice, Bryan Stevenson ends with the conversation with a woman. Although it may have seemed a momentous event in his life, it leaves some confused as to how he could end it in this way. Surely if he had cared to give such grave detail as to the occurrence he would continue to explain how he heeded the advice of this instant friend?

This is not said to take away from the insightful and amazing work that Stevenson has put on paper, however it is more of a critique on how it could be even more powerful to everyone that reads and is touched by this book. By continuing the story a bit farther, Stevenson would have been able to bring the reader full circle in a way ending back where he started as a graduate, fresh off of school and ready to take on the justice system and all of the corruption that seems to inevitably follow it.

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Saint Peter’s Fiesta

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The Italian district of Gloucester, Massachusetts has always been rich with cultural history and pride and nothing illustrates this better than the five day annual celebration of Saint Peter’s Fiesta.

The vast majority of the Italians who settled in Gloucester during the early 20th century made their livelihoods as fisherman, a job that shaped Gloucester’s culture and economy, but was certainly not without risk. The blue collar men were often away and working perilously at the mercy of the seas. While they were away, the women began the tradition of gathering together and praying to Saint Peter, the patron saint of the fishermen.

In 1927, a life sized statue of St. Peter was enshrined in the heart of the district. Fishermen and their families soon began a procession, marching the statue throughout the city and praying to their patron saint for safety and success on the seas. This tradition evolved into the fiesta that is still held every year in the month of June.

Today, the celebration includes amusement park rides, performances down town, a parade, parties, lots of food, and many other festivities, but the event of the Greasy Pole has become most notable of all.

The Greasy Pole Contest was brought over from Sicily and has become a significant cultural tradition in Gloucester. In the event, men (generally of Italian decent) run down a greased Pole in the middle of Gloucester Harbor in an attempt to retrieve the flag at the end of the walk. The victor is paraded through the streets and is able to drink for free at each public house along the way.

The fiesta officially ends on Sunday night at midnight when the statue of Saint Peter is marched throughout the boulevard, followed by a lively, chanting crowd. The statue is then stored away on display where it will remain until fiesta next June.

 

Why Pineapple?

33acfaa7-480f-4a93-8e58-b07a24b3e0fcPineapple. The golden, juicy fruit that has the ability to lift someone out of their winter blues and remind them of a time when it was summer. Not only do pineapples have a decadent, tropical flavor, they are rich in vitamins, antioxidants, and enzymes that boost the immune system and promote strong bones. And if that wasn’t enough, pineapples are, surprisingly based on the flavor, low in calories. You can eat as much pineapple as your hear desires and never feel guilty, but is pineapple really worth it?

Although pineapple has a great flavor, many aspects of the fruit don’t measure up. First of all, the outside of a pineapple isn’t so great; not only is the outside covered in spikes that stab into your hands when you pick the fruit up, the leaves sprouting from the top are essentially razor blades that have the ability to slice your hands off. Sure the armadillo like casing on a pineapple protects the tender insides, it also makes the process of choosing a perfectly ripe pineapple close to impossible. The outside of a pineapple also makes for an enormous task when you’d actually like to enjoy the pineapple. Cutting a pineapple is arguably one of the most time consuming tasks on the planet; taking off the spike-y skin, removing the ginormous core, and cutting the edible portions into chunks or slices can take upwards of an hour. And this hour only has mediocre payoff. You’ve purchased a pineapple, cut the fruit up, and you’re ready to dig in. You eat the pineapple and enjoy every bite of it; that is until you realize how weird pineapple is. The texture is not good at all. The pineapple is stringy and constantly getting wedged in between your teeth in hopes of staying there for an eternity. Not only is the texture awful, the “healthy” enzymes in the pineapple are actually out to get you. That weird, almost dry and itchy, and quite frankly painful, feeling that pineapple leaves in your mouth is a result of the enzymes dissolving the proteins in your mouth. Now that’s kind of creepy right? Pineapple is dangerous on the outside, difficult to get into, and may be dangerous to eat, but if I can’t stop you from eating pineapple so be it. But just remember that when you eat pineapple, the pineapple eats you too. 

Math>English

Cole Paulin
Mrs. Durkee
Ap Language and Composition
3 January 2019
Mathematics and statistics are better than reading and writing. The structure and the sense of certainty make math the best school subject.
Black and white may lack excitement when compared to the other colors, but there is a certain beauty in simplicity. Math is black and white. There is always one right answer, and an infinite amount of wrong answers. The certainty that comes with math makes it easier to learn and understand. If there are X, Y, and Z steps to find the answer, all one needs to do is master those steps. Each type of problem has a correct method to finding the answer, and once the method for each problem is found, math just becomes a series of memorization. But as more formulas and strategies are memorized, they start to blend together so that everything—new and old— starts becoming more like second nature.
When it comes to English, no essay is ever right or wrong. The same exact essay can be both amazing and horrible, all depending on the reader. All the ambiguity muddles the question of what is really a good essay and a bad essay. A writer can never have the satisfaction of the perfect essay, because it doesn’t exist. Perfection is what competitors strive for. Within the world of math, there is always a perfect solution to each and every single problem. The ability to be perfect reflects in the grade book as well. If one knows everything that a math test encompasses, then the only points that could be deducted would be from frivolous mistakes. In English, thousands of different questions could be correct, but then it is up to the teacher to decide how they think your answer stacks up. One answer could even be correct but still lose points because it isn’t correct enough.
Clarity tops ambiguity, perfection overrules perception, and math trumps English.

Winter Dance Concert

A week until show and you frantically go on the hunt for costumes missing and choreography lost in the jumble of thoughts within your brain. You have worked for this show since the first day of school and all of it is about to pay off. You attempt to organize yourself as showtime approaches but you’re left with the constant stress of forgetting something. Three days until the show and the order has been finalized. You stare at the order and make mental notes of everything. You’re in thirteen routines and have four quick changes. You panic then realize you love dance so it’ll be worth it. It’s tech rehearsal day. You go to the auditorium and all the lights are being worked on. The cues are getting set along with the music. You start to get a feel of how the show will go and you love the sweat and rush with every movement. It’s opening night if the show and you never knew you could feel the urge to throw up and jump in excitement at the same time. You line up with the rest of dancers finalizing their makeup and hair in Hanright’s room. You get your costumes in order and it’s finally time to go on stage. You look up into the audience and suddenly your stress is gone. You’re allowed to embrace every emotion and dance the story for the pleasure of others. You suddenly find peace within the chaos.

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