
Many people can never run away from others’ blame and invective just because they said something that others do not say and chose a path that others do not choose. Those who follow the mainstreams would never bear and accept the differences.
There is a type of people who always live beneath the limitations, read what they are supposed to read, say the words they are supposed to say, try their best to fit into the mainstreams, and form a point of view that thinking in their way and doing what they are doing are considered as the right thing to do. In fact, under the criticism of the world’s conventional standard, this type of people are the winners in the game of life.
However, no one cares about how these people begin living like this and how they become the models of societal mainstreams eventually. Is this the true reflection of themselves in response to the culture of the society, or are they just following the herd and wanting to become someone else? Under the influence of the mainstreams, this type of people may never have a thought that belong to themselves, listen to the voices from their hearts, and chase one of their own dreams.
“Mainstream” is a terrible word because it cannot tolerate those non-mainstream people. Most people call “mainstream” a conservative idea, but isn’t it actually exclusionism?
Xiaobo Wang, the most creative writer in China and the product of nearly half a century of Chinese misery and absurdity, was known as Chinese James Joyce and Franz Kafka. He spurned the soft, sentimental, and sycophantic tradition of modern Chinese literature and embraced the critical and imaginative spirit of Bertrand Russell. His works satirize all kinds of absurdities and miseries of our lives and are filled with imagination and fantasy while keeping part of the rationalism.
In one of his essays, A Peculiar Pig, Xiaobo expressed his feelings toward the frustrations and chagrins of his life.
Although being peculiar may bring lots of troubles and hardships, what people may get at the end will be freedom and a kind of happiness that they always wanted.
In our life, pigs are seen often and everywhere in pigsties, slaughter houses, markets, and even on our dinning tables. Pigs have left a solid impression in our mind that they only know about eating from day to night and when they are full, they sleep in the dirty pigsty. They do not care if the world is changing dramatically, nor worry about and work for the three meals everyday. What they actually care is to keep themselves fat and white, but they don’t know that’s what makes their owners happy because the owners can then sell them for good prices.
However, Xiaobo allows us to see a peculiar and surprising pig. The author describes this pig that ” it is a hog, but it is black and thin, with lights in its eyes. It’s as agile as a goat that it can jump over a one-meter-high fence; it can even jump over to the roof of the pigsty, which characterizes like a cat–therefore, it never stays in its pigsty and always hangs around,” and “Later, it learns how to scream like a siren. This ability brings it plenty of troubles. We have a sugar factory there, and it needs to sound its siren to let the workers know that it’s time to change shifts. When our team hear the siren, we will stop working and go back to the workers’ house. This peculiar hog will jump over to the roof and start screaming like the siren at 10am every morning, an hour earlier than the factory, calling back the people at work.” His writings have fully demonstrated the peculiar actions of this pig. How many people have even seen this kind of pig? I’ve never seen it before anyway.
Through the comparison of this peculiar pig and other normal pigs, a question regarding the value of life and choices of freedom is raised. The life of normal pigs is completely controlled by humans, like having babies and storing fat, which is a reflection of our own living conditions. We always live within the circles and patterns others created, for example, the working class people finish their own works and tasks according to the woking system every day. They go to work on time and then return home to spend their free time, without expressing any of their own ideas, their lives become the past eventually. Many people follow what their parents have arranged for them, from primary school, to middle school, to high school, to college, and then they start a career and build a family, completing his whole life step by step, never thinking about fulfilling a dream or being brave to achieve something they want to do. Nonetheless, many people are willing to live a normal and plain life without complaint. They do not understand how to liberate themselves, to give themselves some freedom, which is a real sadness in this society.
Think hard that why there are so many people willing to give up freedom. Because to be like the peculiar pig is difficult. We always have infinite dreams to chase in our lives, and as long as there’s a little bit of chance, we will keep adding all kinds of desires, hopes, and imaginations into our minds. This is a survival instinct, and the purpose of survival is to enjoy everything. However, no matter where you stand at the levels of life, when you are actually facing the reality of life, we always do and say things involuntarily. This is because we cannot get rid of the double pressures from both inside and outside circumstances, forcing us to do something we do not intend to do.
Perhaps all of this is doomed, that we cannot free and express ourselves, and we cannot become peculiar. We all yearn for freedom, but we all know as well that freedom can only be the ideal component of our lives, instead of waiting for us at the end of a road. Therefore, many people can only spend their lives working hard and dreaming of freedom, while living an ordinary life.